Grief is like your life was like a beautiful pool until one day a storm came along placing a giant crack through it and releasing a large amount of the water. Now, you are still grateful for the pool you still have left but it will never be the same. You still can sit in … Continue reading Grief is like….
I had seen the waterfall a half dozen times, but walking towards it on the narrow path that circled behind the waterfall always gave me a sense of anticipation. As I grew closer to it I would begin to feel the slide of the mud under my feet, the mist of the spray hitting my … Continue reading Destination Unknown
Have you ever seen an image and had it resonate with you? Like the metaphor or similarities were created only for you, at the moment you were to see it, the poetic imagery that would then stir the emotions inside you? That is how I felt when I viewed the few hundred year old tree … Continue reading Uprooted
The world is in a pandemic. Duh, you say. Well for some of us you are experiencing just a glimpse of what many people have already been feeing, fighting and struggling with. For two months now I have been struggling to figure out this weird emotion I have towards hearing people complain about not being … Continue reading Unconventional Times
When my husband and I were first married, we would daydream about where we would own a vacation home. Though I grew up in Ohio, I was an ocean girl. I used to joke that I moved as far away from the Midwest as possible until I hit the ocean. I moved to California to … Continue reading Emotional Tides
The fear of losing a connection to my daughter is ever present. During my grief therapy sessions no one could explain to me how to move forward without letting go. I kept thinking about the imagery my friend used with the trapeze, you cannot grab the the rung coming at you unless you let go … Continue reading In Their Honor
When the news came that schools would be closed two weeks ago, I went into action mode. I started checking off the list in my head of things I needed to do. I wanted to stay ahead of the panic, I ordered groceries, a bidet (in case things got really bad), and thought of ways … Continue reading Grief on Hold
Before the pandemic hit our doorsteps a few weeks ago I had the opportunity to go to Seattle and stay with my friend's family. I wanted to show my exchange student from the Netherlands our sister city. My friend's cousin, Katie has a daughter Sam. (The names are altered here for privacy.) I knew … Continue reading Silent Superheros
A few days ago I kept daydreaming about my birthday. I could go away for the night with my husband, maybe I could once again meet up at a nearby wine bar with my girlfriends. I thought about getting my hair done or eyebrows, but when the day came I found myself in a puddle … Continue reading Pitfalls of Celebration
Walking in the Valley I am not sure when I learned to actually ask for help. It wasn't really always in my nature. I know in high school I went through a serious trauma all by myself in my junior year. I never told a soul, not a friend or adult what I was dealing … Continue reading Just Ask
Raven and Roses 